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I just read your letter to me you posted. It is one of the most beautiful things I have read in a long time. You are right that people dont do snail mail anymore, I cant remember the last time I wrote such a letter. Writing has become a lost art, so it was exciting to receive such a retro classic from you.

You said you are proud of me for making so much progress on my book. For a long time its been my life, and my saviour. I have found solace in writing. Its been therapeutic. A way for me to engage with others, and express myself. Ive learnt a lot about the real me over the years. You talk about purpose, which many of us strive for in life. I dont seek to inspire, thats never been my goal, but to share what its like being me in the modern world and to communicate with others about difference.

Many what ifs and regret go through my mind, but I would like to think I came out better from a bad situation. I fought back knowing it was the more difficult and courageous path, because the alternative wasnt one for me. I had always felt I lost everything in doing so, but you say I hadnt. The things I did lose werent quite as important as I thought they were. Your words are true.

Only now have I realised that I was disillusioned in my former job, but youre right dreams do change, and people change. I can only hope that I can do far more better things for the world as a writer than I ever did policing, so all has not been in vain. Only through writing have I found my voice. One I never had before. I do realise this.

The life I had before was shrouded by naivety, I guess because there were certain things I didnt want to admit. I will take your advice and strive not to mourn something that wasnt real, for me anyway. I will try to look back objectively, although I admit I was unhappy.

There are days I feel alone, even though I know I am not. I too know I cant isolate myself and feel sad when I do. I know the world I find myself existing in when I do isnt an accurate representation of what its really like. I dream that I will find peace in a place that is diverse and progressive. A place where there are like-minded people like me. We found each other by chance, and yes, thats exactly how it happens.

I had resigned myself to thinking that Ill never meet someone Ill mesh perfectly with. I am getting better of not being afraid of meeting people, who care about the same things and arent shy about speaking out. I know I have to stop being careful about projecting a certain image. If I care about stuff, then say it. I know it doesnt make me a radical, even though those who want to silence my voice will say I am. Youre right though, I dont care what stupid people think. It is their problem.

I pondered on your thought when you said you think Ill find happiness when I stop trying to be the good guy. You think Im amazing anyway, but that I dont need anyone to validate me. It is I who is lucky to know you, and I who feels blessed to have met you. We will be friends forever.

All my love xx